adaptation

Today was a depressing day for me. I was absolutely unmotivated and stressed, and feeling a little depressed by the weather (it was rainy, cold, and cloudy). I also took a nap today as I was feeling a bit chilled and tired and cold. I realized I was eating out of boredom (snacking here and there) and thus I overate today.

I wanted to get some fresh air and so I went for my usual jog. I went for about an hour and a half, although I wasn't keeping track at the time - I just went out and came back when I felt better. Unfortunately the result of all that jogging made me super hungry, yet already being over my projected calories for the day I was again feeling a bit stressed.

I was able to stave it off for about an hour until my hunger got the best of me. Although I ate well, I added to my already full number of calories. I ate an additional 1100 calories, which according to the CRON lifestyle is not optimal, but I guess with the roughly 1100 calories burned in the 90 minutes of jogging I did, it all "balances" out. However, I do understand that optimal CRON focuses on the actual number of calories consumed, not necessarily deficit.

I was doing some research searching for the best solution to this problem of mine and I've decided that over the next week or so I will just shave off a few calories here and there. I've already planned my meals and I am getting adequate nutrition, its just there really is no freedom for eating out (unless I eat minuscule portions!). I must weigh everything this week and stick to staying under my calorie goal. It is only for a week. One week from today I can go back to my originally projected target.

Of course I could also just say "restart tomorrow and forget about today" but then I would only be doing myself a disservice. Its always "tomorrow" and if I keep that mentality I'll never make any progress. Before I know it I'll already be too old... haha.

At least I learned from my mistakes. Its interesting to see how much food I consume after exercise. It almost makes me want to eat more than I burned. Quite interesting. I should have tested my blood sugar when I got the craving to eat. I think I'll do that next time.

I think I also have to just practice resisting the urge to eat at non-meal times. I also have that problem and I think it just adds to my current difficulties.

I've also learned that I *must* eat at every meal or else I have the urge to over-eat. I've read a few blogs of others doing a one-meal-a-day diet and a while back I gave it a go, but I didn't last very long on it. I remember always being hungry and thus I always thought about food. It was not ideal. I also think its a bit socially awkward.

Overall though, I like how I am learning. Its interesting to watch myself as I've never really been fully aware of my own eating behaviors. Too bad eating past 8 or 9 keeps me awake, and I bet it is going to adversely influence my blood sugar in the morning.